One of the biggest issues I've had with my own writing is not knowing whether or not I want to be identified as a Christian writer. I am a Christian. I am a writer. That doesn't automatically make me a "Christian writer."
When I first started getting serious about writing books, I absolutely knew I did NOT want to be known as a Christian writer. It's mainly because I've not read a whole lot of good Christian fiction, but also because I really have reservations about writing books that probably only Christians will read. I've read some decent Christian fiction in the last few months, and I've given some thought to what I want to do. I haven't come to any solid conclusions...because as you might have gathered, I'm just a TAD bit indecisive.
The thing is, I am starting to think I won't have to make a decision. I can't seem to help keeping my Christian ideals out of my writing. Some writers who are Christians don't have a problem with this. They can keep their writing lives separate from their beliefs, and I can't judge them at all for it. In fact, I'm a little jealous. It must be nice to just be able to separate writing from life like that. I'm not able to do it...and I know I'd be doing something detrimental to my writing if I tried.
I am not one of those Christians who can tell you the exact day I became a Christian. I can't tell you exactly how old I was. I can't tell even really talk about what my life was like before Christ, because as long as I remember, the Lord has been pursuing me. I do know that I originally wanted to be a Christian because I was afraid of hell. That's a pretty lame reason, but God used that to eventually build a strong faith that isn't just a part of my life. It is my life. That's not to say I'm perfect or always make decisions based on what I think God wants me to do. I fail. I fail a LOT. But I can't deny His constant presence guiding everything in my life--including my writing.
I'm not a "five point Calvinist." I'm not sold on this predestination stuff. But as far as I'm concerned, I think He's chosen me. I know the Lord has wanted me since childhood. It's not because I'm good or worthy. In fact, the Lord knows better than I do that I'm a weak, foolish, cowardly sinner who's only able to do anything good because of the goodness He's done in me. I'm not all that useful, but He wants to use me anyway. I don't know why. I don't know why He has chased me so hard or given me so much, but I know that because He has, much is expected of me.
That's not why I think that I'm going to end up being a Christian writer. I'm not trying to give something back. I'm not trying to be anything. I just am what I am. And I think what I am is...a Christian writer.
Sometimes, I have to make a choice. Sometimes, it chooses me. I think I'm going to end up being a Christian writer because I don't really have the choice to be anything else. I think every time I put pen to paper, something "me-breathed" is going to come out. And because God is so present in my life, that "me-breathed" stuff is going to be a reflection of God's breath.
I just pray they're not all poor reflections.